Not giving a fuck has allowed me to be who I am and has given me the opportunity to fall in love with the most breathtakingly beautiful girl that I've ever laid my eyes on.
I grew up with both of my parents and my brother and sister, none of whom are very accepting people. I was in and out of the LDS church until we stopped attending when I was about 13. The church was definitely not the place for me.
Last year was the year that I found myself. I found who I wanted to be, got rid of the most toxic people in my life, and gained the most rewarding friendships I could ask for.
I started gaining feelings for one of my close friends, which was terrifying to me. Growing up I was told that same-sex love was wrong. SO WRONG. So I put those feelings in the back of my heart for almost a year.
Eventually I told myself that there was no way I could stop something that I felt was supposed to happen. So, I just let it naturally evolve into the most beautiful, life-changing relationship, which I am in today. I knew I was in love.
I still didn't want my family to know about it, because I knew they felt as if it was wrong. But I did let my sister know because I thought I could trust her. She proved me wrong. She outed me at my birthday party, to my entire family except my father. Since then, the way that a lot of my family members view me has changed drastically.
For a while my mom wouldn't even let me go over to her house. But very slowly, I feel like she is growing to accept the fact that I'm gay for my girl. My father still doesn't know.
A lot of things have changed in my life since I came out, both good and bad. But, the good easily outweighs the bad. Giving and receiving the most unconditional love has simply been the best thing that has ever happened to me. The people I have lost have no comparison to the amazing person that I've gained.
I promise you that in the end, it won't matter what people have said about you, because being able to finally be you will be the most rewarding thing you can do for yourself. So try to just not give a fuck, because not giving a fuck has allowed me to be who I am and has given me the opportunity to fall in love with the most breathtakingly beautiful girl that I've ever laid my eyes on.